april fools life.

do you ever feel like it's all a big joke...life?  i'm here.  doing my thing.  for 2 years.  then, right before everything changes, things appear to align.  well, kinda.  i don't have much time left.  i'm not scared.  just nostalgic.  as much as i don't like it here, i do.  as many times as i feel like i'm in a dead end, i still wish the road would miraculously open up.  but maybe it will.  soon.  i pray.  kate lifted my spirits today.  things will be different.  but good.